I am still on the way to Kuqa. Since the camera cannot take pictures, how about sharing it with you in the future? When I woke up early in the morning, the scenery outside the window flew by. I realized that I was still traveling, so I wrote this article.
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Every time you are on the road, you can meet different people with different purposes or concepts of life, forming a transition here.
The feeling of being on the road is addictive. You will find that these dream-like experiences are indeed bragging rights, or in other words, a constant outward tension.
I don’t like words like “I’ll get old if I don’t go crazy”. Those are just words passed down by others’ mouths, floating like air, and extremely boring. Why are we crazy? All I need is awareness and understanding. Every time you pack your bags, you practice.
I don’t know exactly how I managed to survive these days of trekking over mountains and ridges. At least I am completely sure that this is the greatest suffering I have ever experienced.
It turns out that my previous travels were so happy. I drove a comfortable and spacious off-road vehicle, splashed through a patch of mud or trails, and speeded on the washboard road. My body enjoyed the comfortable shaking like a massage chair after being filtered by mechanical shock absorption. Do we call it cross-country? We carry as much equipment as possible, even oxygen bottles, air humidifiers and other treasures that are as rare as Tianwai Laiwu. We have enough power and can bring iPads or Sennheisers. When we are bored, we can enjoy music just like at home. We roll down our car windows and shout cheers to hikers or cyclists, but we don’t understand. We only know how to look for delicious food and find a comfortable hotel based on the navigation map.
Life is actually a process of abuse, and the biggest source of abuse is self-abuse. As the saying goes, no zuo no die. You have been challenging your limits, consciously or unconsciously, to see how good you are.
The body is constantly suffering in hell, being blocked time and time again by cliffs, broken rocks, rivers or any random force of nature. It is anger, helplessness, humbleness, and prayer. In the end, it can only crawl forward. Apart from survival, there is no time or physical strength to think about anything. Looking at the mountains that stretch to the end, human strength is so insignificant that it is not worth mentioning. The biggest gain after climbing over these mountains is definitely not the joy of conquering, but after climbing over, you will know how high the sky is and how high it is.
We hung on the cliff like goats for six or seven hours, but we are not as good at climbing as goats. Everyone is exhausted, desperate and with a natural desire to survive, and the trekking poles are carefully looking for any possible fulcrum. Survive from desperate situations again and again. Hunger, despair, and lack of water are terrifying. I can’t even remember how deep the desire was when we came out of the predicament and saw the river. I was just as greedy as the little man in most movies who saw an oasis from the desert, rushing to the water source desperately. That was hope!
We once spent a whole day climbing over a shale mountain and only advanced two kilometers. The fragmented rocks all over the mountain make people collapse, but the high altitude deprives the brain of oxygen, high-intensity pressure and loss of physical fitness. People constantly have dangerous suicidal thoughts. It was then that I truly understood that losing hope and jumping were part of the reorganization of life. Moreover, it is as light as a feather. To put it bluntly, it is the re-deconstruction and structure of amino acids.
We were once trapped in a blizzard, shivering with cold, and everyone was in despair. The blizzard blew down the tent countless times, and the ground nails and fastening ropes were as unbearable as toys. We could only rely on the weight of our bodies to hold the tent down, and we relied on each other tightly to pray for a little warmth as much as possible, even if it felt good.
How can such a small human being dare to claim conquest?
Very few people come here, even those who have lived here for generations. I can’t imagine what it was like when the Wusun people first opened this north-south passage across the Tianshan Mountains three thousand years ago and encountered Paradise Lake. I also don’t know the amazing praise that the hiker in 2009 had when he saw Paradise Lake when he relied on military maps to reopen the beauty of these three thousand years of vicissitudes of life.
Although the mountains and rivers here are extremely majestic and shock the hearts of every visitor, and are unparalleled in their eternity, they are the most isolated and lonely place I have ever seen.
In my previous life, I was a drop of rain and dew, evaporating, absorbing, and constantly traveling in the sky and ocean. These snow-capped mountains and lakes have always been there. At that time, I was lucky enough to take a side view, but I had no chance to become one of the three thousand weak lakes. In this life, I finally experience your tenderness and can appreciate your beauty greedily and unscrupulously. How much I believe in reincarnation, I believe that no matter which reincarnation I am in, the paradise lake is still the paradise lake, silent, cold and arrogant, solitary and self-admiring, and alone for thousands of years. Thirty thousand years later, you will still be like this.
I have seen some joys and sorrows, and the bustling branches and leaves. I don’t like joys and sorrows, nor do I like sensational scenes. I am a speaker myself.
People will grow up after experiencing some things, and gain knowledge and experience. There are many sorrows in joys and sorrows, and it is inevitable to miss each other. Since I came gently, I should leave gently. I don’t want to be disturbed by the waves like the cornerstone in the river bed. At the break-up seat, I try to be as quiet as possible and wish you well. My friends, you must also know that if we still have five hundred years of practice to spend together in this life, we will naturally drink and talk loudly. If all blessings are there, why not cherish each other since the road ahead is so uncertain? Go slow.
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